My name is Krissa and I write so that I can heal. I have been writing stories since primary/elementary school and journaling and writing poetry since I was 13 years old. It’s just what I do. I’ve had this blog for over a year now and I have kept it anonymous. I refused to share it with my family and people who know me (with the exception of a few) for several reasons.
I didn’t want to be judged. I didn’t want people in my business. I didn’t want people to think I was dumb for believing that my marriage would be restored. I didn’t want to hear I told you so because it wasn’t. I didn’t want to have to deal with people’s expectations or criticisms. And I didn’t want the responsibility of what my words may carry. But apart from what I didn’t want, I wanted one thing and that was to protect the other parties/people that are a part of my life.
The thing is, I have been reading and learning a lot and I’ve come to realize that at some point we all have to take responsibility and be held accountable for our actions and decisions. This world is full of so much dysfunction and chaos that keeps getting perpetuated from generation to generation because we just decide that it’s the norm now so we’ll just go with the flow. Or we believe that things cannot change. Or we think that if we keep things a secret that they will just go away.
I’ve reached a point in my life where I want more. I want to see more. I want to live in a better world! I don’t want to exist and then die. God created each and every one of us for a purpose and I want to live in mine! I haven’t quite figured out exactly what that is yet but I’m determined to do so. I’ve decided to get to know my creator better so that I can get to know what He created me for. While I’m doing that, I’m going to write about it!
I started this blog as a leap of faith because I felt like God was calling me to do it. Now, more than a year later, I believe He’s calling me to make it public. I’m not doing this for likes or to become famous and I’m not writing to just write about the people in my life or gossip. My purpose is to write about the process, my growth and what God is doing in my life. He is the author and finisher of my faith (Heb 12:2). He began a good work in me and I’m confident that He will see it to completion! (Phil 1:6).
Just doing my Father’s Work!
Crowned Papillon aka Krissa