I haven’t written anything since September but I decided that I had to write something before the year ends. 2018 has been a year filled with many ups and downs but I am ever so grateful for all the lessons that have been learned.
I thought about doing an update about what has been going on in my life and marriage since I last posted but I wanted this last post to be just about me and what I want going into the next year. I have been DOING a whole lot this past year so next year all I want is to BE!! In no particular order, I want to:
BE still and know
This has been a struggle for me for so long because I keep getting in my own way. I want to totally surrender everything to God and just know that He will take care of it.
With my writing, with my prayer life, with reading the Bible. I don’t only want to write about my personal life or just when I’m upset. I want to just write!
BE in His Presence
This is connected to being intentional because I have to set aside quiet time everyday to just be with my Father, to hear Him speak to me.
BE at Peace
With my life, with my situation, with other people!
I want to be so in tuned with the Father that I will be very aware at all times. I will be able to discern certain things and make the right choices.
I don’t come across as arrogant but my humility still needs to be checked on occasion. God is still working on my secret sins (pride, judgment and jealously).
I need to stick to my word and stop backsliding, especially when it comes to my abstinence.
BE a light
I want to inspire and help others in whatever ways that I can.
It’s not my will but God’s will. I have to stop holding myself to deadlines and my and other people’s expectations.
BE known and loved
God knew and loved me before He formed me in my mother’s womb. He has the best intentions for my life; a plan to prosper me and not to harm me. No matter what happens, no matter what I do, He will never stop loving me; He will never leave me nor forsake me. I need to relish that feeling so that no matter what the enemy tries to throw at me I will never stop trying. I will never lose faith. I will always run back to my Father where Grace and Mercy abounds!
There is still lots I want to DO but I believe that once I BE all of those things I’ll be able to DO exactly what I’m supposed to!
Just Doing my Father’s Work