That night I could not sleep. I kept thinking about all the times Ray hurt me and I kept having flashbacks. One of them was the day after I found out about the baby. Phone call with Aurora:
“Oh my God Ro! You would not believe the shit I got myself into today!”
“Do I need to find bail money? Get the gun? Or glass of wine?”
“Thank God because I really did not want to leave my house. Spill it!”
“I don’t know what got into me today but I found myself by Clint’s house”
“Clint. The guy from Drama Club. The older dude. Dark skinned. Blonde hair”
“Eww, him! I don’t know what you see in him! But anyway, go ahead”
“He called me out of the blue today and asked if I wanted to come over. He’s been flirting with me for months now so I didn’t really want to go because I knew I would’ve been looking for trouble but I figured why the heck not!”
“You and these F it moments Kailani! You need to get your shit together! Stop making Ray and his BS drive you to do stupid stuff! I really hope you did not give it up to that dude! But continue.”
“So anyway, I got to his house and his brother was home and he gave me this look as if to say, yep she’s about to get some D”.
“But isn’t that what you went for?”
“Shut up. No. I don’t know. So I’m like what the hell am I doing here! Anyway, the brother leaves and Clint puts on a movie. I’m watching the movie good, good and he starts talking about how much he wanted to kiss me since the first day he saw me. So we started kissing and I’m still watching the movie and my boy starts to move downward. He gets to the breast and I’m like okay fine but then he continues in the southerly direction and next thing I know, panties came off!”
“What the F???”
“Girl! I know! So I’m still watching the movie thinking I can’t believe I’m letting this happen! And my boy eating away and I’m there not paying attention to anything that’s going on down there, still engrossed in the movie, laughing and shit”.
“Damn! Was it his first time? He must not know what he was doing then!”
“No comment! But anyway he eventually got upset and stopped. Girl I felt so bad. I was like listen, I’m sorry but I got to go. I put my panties back on and ran out that house so fast! I’m so glad that drama club is over because I do not want to see him again. I’m so ashamed of myself!”
“Girl please! He should be the one ashamed for that weak tongue action!“
“Aurora Sky Jones! You are too bad! You always know how to make me laugh though”.
“But seriously, are you okay?“
“I guess I am. I don’t know. Ray and I have been doing this dance for 5 years now. But after last night, I’m done. I can’t believe he got that girl pregnant. Ro, I wrote a letter! I was willing to put everything on the line for him. But this is it. There’s no turning back from this one.“